right after exams

The first thing I did was to go to FUEGO to WORK!
and well wasnt really appreciated in a way. but I think i survived the night cos baby came to visit me.
anyway the net thing i knew I fell sic with what i think is stomach flu and I was running a fever. I was vomiting and diarrheaing whatever that i ate or drank. lucky baby was there the whole night to take care of me. hehe.
alright anyway, I am going to china soon. cheers.
aussie people, please meet up befre i go.

photos ahah

thats my cousin. ain't she cute!?








THats the sail that I made during my project discussion. hehe.

J D

I have never felt so helpless before with anyone. this is the virgin experience. I a really pulling my hair out. I dunno what the fuck is wrong and what the hell to do. to fuckin move left or right.

school's stress right guys... well hope things go fine.

Anyway shout out to my dear friends. Jae's world has been very wicked as usual, just that there is not much time for me to blog and upload fotos. but i promise to upload more things. cheers.
and my fucking key board is spoilt. knn!!! fuck Its the first time I am so fuckin pissed with my life now! DANNY LOI! fucking call me back! CALL ME BACK!

This fuckin' world is still "double you - eye- cee -kay - ee - dee", WICKED.

Pictures....

That is me when i was in adelaide you know. I came back and i lose so much weight! everyweek 1 Kg! help.!!! come back to singapore I lose my command of english and weight! my assets are gone again!
Thats loaunne, haha. Same wavelength. I feel you lulu. You know what i mean. God. Two chilli padis today. haha
Ok people, this hot chic is like the previous owner of my phone now. haha. ooppsss.
The hamster pic is like my roomies hamster which ran out of its cage and got stuck in the cupboard. We pried open the cupboard to save it from death. so stupid!

Thats TAN with her nice teeth! god makes me wanna go do braces.

This cute boy beside me is clarence the bear. D to the B. you know. haha. if he looks familiar means u seen him in my previous entries. not because you seen him on the streets on sg or aussie. k. haha
OH! this pic shows where the stupid hamster got stuck in. We broke the cupbboards to save it. haha.

ALright. this is a very abstract piece. The dog is trying to cross the road and the cars are trying to drive. The dog hesitates and waits for the car and the car does the same.. haha. funny right. shows my situation with D. dunno whether to move or not to move.

long time no sad

Its been a long time since i feel sad. everything is chumming together. D, H, Ub, Y, Sc... man. if I can only have more time for myself and my work and motivation to get things started. i dunno if everyone elses has times like that... but i know that stupid idiot does. oh well. anyway stupid idiot.... believe me k. the internship is driving me crazy. and school hasnt been good for me too. I had the worst dreams last night . the PR piece was crap and it made me have this ever flowing microsoft word view whenever i closed my eyes. GOD! for a moment i really thought i got psychosis. wicked wicked wicked

the LACK OF PROFessionalism

I shall be politically correct. First I got singled out by bobbing 5 times in class. which I think is partially my fault. but my intent was to keep myself awake.
Then I get blacked mark fucking forever. professors shouldnt be like that. Why ? and well I shouldnt comment about how I AM being condemned in school by this person now, and that I am in his bad books. Furthermore, he may potentially be someone that might affect my honours grade!
But well, I just asked a very simple question about a piece of work today and he TOLD ME TO MAKE AN APPOINTMENT WITH HIM! it was a question that would maybe take 2 minutes of his million dollar schedule.
Pardon me, maybe I crossed his path last time, when I was doing the practicum. but it shames me to know that in my school, there are people that are so intelligent but are so petty. And for someone at an age where he could already be my father... it totally shames and floors me. if I can melt ... I would have. maybe to the point of disgust.
thanks mr sim. you are so influencial.

thoughts

the more I am into d the less I feel that h will work out. na nuen michotso. gimme somewhere to breathe!

WTF

na neun jinjia michotso. hwan jan eh. na neun chung mal po go ship da brisbane chingu. leave message? araso? dae hyun hiong, call me when you get back to korea. :)

MRT

Its funny when someone slutty-looking walks into the mrt and everyone stares. her skirt is white and so short you could almost look through what shes wearing. almost. she is just an average ah lian you know. nice skin but average looking face. and together with her there were this bunch of men that walked in. more memorable was this fat and ugly guy(4/10) and this ok looking guy( 6/10) both of them were "tactically looking" they try to look as if they are not peering at her by looking somewhere else. each cycle when they turn their head left and riight they will peer at her for an instant to "admire the view" they then try to distract themselves by doing something else, like cleaning their shoe. haha. and then they go thru the cycle again. turn and look and look. haha. the cute young girl was also looking, the cute, old, young, fat, adolescent even. the things short skirts and nice legs do to humans. haha. the brains and the imaginative hands travel, I bet! haha. They kinda stopped when they realised that I was observing their eyes and movement. but the still did it again. you know the thing when the head turns but the eyes just stay focused on one spot! haha. thats it. cheers to jaes wicked world.

no more

hana is tired of calling me, and she doesnt understand me. T.T na neng na hwan anna so. jinjia. T.T

hall 11

I have 59 fugging ECA points. I was staying in HALL X for 4 semesters and now I'm staying in HALL XI. there is only so much the JCRC can do.
angsty MF Jae.

saturday @ zouk

There's good house at ZOUK! evermore was playing not once but twice. haha. love it, tempted to do zouksats again.

back in singapore

being back in busy singapore is good. and yet i miss brissy so much. using other things here to compensate for the lost feeling i am having now. everyone! i miss you guys. i dunno if anyone of you all are reading this. but hell yeah. I miss you people so much! :)

katie

katie is from thailand. haha. This picture was taken the last time i met her in Brisvegas. yeah. We met a couple of times so far. but not scheduled ones. just out of coincidence we met so many times. I still remember me going up to her on Queen street mall while see was eating her ice cream. hilarious situations. anyway Shes a good girl (**fingers crossed) haha.

last moments in OZ

stayed over at my good buddy bens place. he was a great host for the entire sydney trip. love him.

the last day in aussie is good. Waking up to the aussie air is great. Taking in the cold breeze at buddybens room is amazing. I was at the balcony looking at the traffic by with my chill milk and chips. watching the world go by. simply calming to the soul. I await for the last hours I am here in aussie. taking it in. savouring it.

last day out in Brisy with suah.

out with her today was good. she is like all
accepting. but not as a bf though. I am like a
friend. oh well. man I am really going to miss her.
she is such a cutie as well. Bought her a pencil with
a butterly on the top and a book for writing her
scribbles. She likes cats and dogs as well. she
doesnt like kids, but only cute kids. haha. just like
me. oh well. what has society made us into. Eagle
street pier was normal, nothing much to see. oh well.
we ate lunch (sandwiches) there where we saw a
gruesome scene. "the kitchen hand was like cuttting
the meat with a saw looking thing that reminded us of
murderers. it was so funny. it made food distasteful.
haha.it just made things apparent to me that its all
material. oh well. WHat luck I have. cheers jackass.

sydney flatmates

in room 501. thats samuel's room. I met his flatmates watanabe shimpei, neha joshi and seema. Sam is really lucky, his flatmates are really nice. Shimpei knows korean too! haha. unlike me his reason for the language is different.

anyway My japanese name is, lu kokorojashi suguru or ketz, takashi, or takeshi.I prefer lu kokorojashi suguru. yeah. haha. well sydney is kinda like a huge city. in comparison, I feel that people in sydney are less warm than those in brissy and adelaide. melbourne is just a little better. yeah. well. I have been going to many places in sydney. but the days hasnt been good for photo taking. Oh well. I do hope the days were much clearer for moi to take photos but NO.

anyway its been a good five months. its coming to an end tonight. and things are well. I think i've had enough of travelling, I dun have that much of zest to drag myself out of bed to look at the sydney city. haha. but I think I have seen enough city though. anyway Thanks to buddy ben I seen alot of sydney. Its been good food and great sights in sydney. Sam is so idiotic he isnt nice to his flatmates. they are a great bunch of people. May our paths cross once again.

2nd day in sydney

the second day in sydney was wicked. I met Andrew Rodriguez and Keith Thrift and we went around the city for shots in the morning. for lunch we had 5 dollar lunch boxes and a bottle of CROC ROCK. haha. wine in the noon. true aussie style. haha.

we headed down to bondi where we saw the famous beach front. The sunset was not that fantastic though cos of all the blue and gloomy skies. We got a small bottle of smirnoff from the liqourshop and skulled it with redbull at the pizza shop. haha. we were all high.

after that we headed down to watch SUperman! it was a crazy day with alcohol and two hispanic-americans. they are such a fun loving bunch. oh ya. cheap alcohol gives me headaches. haha.

Melbourne- world cup 2006

me, dev and des were on lygon street for the world cup2006 finals. it was nothing short of spectacular. Emotions for the azzuri can be felt from streets away. Serie A flares could be seen from two blocks away. one word. "overwhelming" It was a great choice to watch in on the italian Mafia street. haha. AMazing was it and yet at the same time all three of us were kinda scared that Italy would loose and we would be made into asian-shit. haha. But well. It all went well on Italy's side. Forza Italia! woohoo. There goes two nutheads that jumped up the roof to celebrate! haha. crazy MFs. It is by far the best soccer experience I had in my life. Nothing can beat it.



the morning after was to Mount Buller. I see snow for the first time in my life. the 4 hours drive to the top was worth it. The snow fight was simply "childsplay". It makes me feel so much fun to fight with snow just like a kid. But it is way to cold though. Dev had his hands frozen "eh Jae, my fingers are numb, cant feel anything" hhahaa! thanks to desiree the heat packs served a good purpose. haha. I want to snowboard. but I don't think I am going to do that already. damn. Oh well. I will do it again in the future. definitely. our fellow comrades from malaysia brought atapchi up. we originally wanted to eat ice kachang. but well it was too cold and all we wanted was just to finish the can of atapchi and leave. haha. oh well. but it tasted exceptional at more than 1000m above sea level. haha. minghui, nick, nigel, ck, and ginyong were with me and dev. it was great fun I RECKON!


thereafter we went to the st kilda's beach to check out wat was lef there. too bad I cant get to see it in the morning. I think it would have been amazing and breathtaking nontheless.

Don's House party

dons house party was good! it was like there were familiar faces. I managed to pull matthew there as well. i felt so happy when he chatted well with shannon. haha that guy is just so shy. right ?oh well. anyway Don sings really well. its like its really a pity that he is not tall enuf. in the stupid material and pragmatic world it sucks. after the party we went to watch the germany-argentina match at jimmys. where i felt a bit under the weather. there after it was about 4 and we made way to the casino. haha. there we compared english accents between the americans, aussies and singaporeans. haha. we laughed all our arses off. amazing night once again.

Dreamworld

Dreamworld was definitely a fun place to go with yeong ghi and soo hee, tiffany and peishan. Although both the malaysians were like giddy after the CLAW. It is really funny to see that. I was laughing quite a bit. haha. anyway Giant drop was great, wipeout(wave thing) was great, the claw was fantastic, the tower of terror was unexpectedly good. In comparison with the theme park in CALi, dreamworld is so so small. prob only about 30% of the real thing. there is nothing much to see either. but nonetheless the company was good. I felt some true frienship here. thanks tae han ming gu people. jo ah hae yo. thanks to the to ching gus! kkk ~~~

klubkandy

it was klubkandy/ marvellous night. we had hip hop then there after we tried techno. it was really really fast, I was so wondering why the hell I liked it fr that little while. man it must have been the history. jhah anyway there were like so many pple there. haha. I am like leaving them all. shannon,peishan, tae hyun, yeong ghi, all of them. I really miss going away from them.

story bridge

I tot that it would have been the last time that i am
meeting suah. oh well. We went to eat at this posh
place near the story bridge. it was a marvellous
meal. which she kinda footed a bigger % of the bill.
haha. anyways I was too conscious of myself to enjoy.
the walk across the story bridge is really good. I
felt that she wasnt feeling so defensive and the wall
was kinda down. but I am leaving. oh well. let me
tell ya the story about the story bridge."a girl from
korea met a guy in singapore in a .... initailly she
was afraid of picking up the phone. but he replied in
korean. that touched her.they then met again for
coffee with her friend sophie. the story then
continued.just talking(a lil) and taking pictures. I
saw some pellets on the floor, i believe it is some
kinda pellet for like ballons. I threw them and made
a wish. she did so too. :) yeah. it all ended when i
walked her back to her apartments and tribeca
apartments. cheers.

house party

the rushed house party was amazing. the turnout was not 100% but I was relieved cos i think i din cook enuf food. but lucky i still had things in the drawer that was on reserve. Oh well anyway it was all good. I think all over about 20 pple came. (19+manami) I cooked sambal pakchoy, stirfry pakchoy, long beans with luncheon, saseme chicken, bak kut teh, sambal pipes, fried bee hoon, porpor mince meat, and rice! yeon and sam helped with sausages and chicken drumsticks. It was a great dinner get together. I hope they liked the stuff i did. I cooked them with a strong punch of spice to let them "experience" Asian food! haha. I loved it when I saw shannon and sarah drinking the bak kut teh and sipping beer at the same time to try to make the drinking easier. they are such sweeties arent they? haha. I love em. the true blue aussies. I met the bunch the first month that I came here. and i think i kinda lost touch with em then. but this really got me back into the group. I am really glad I decided to throw this. Thanks dom for your room. Its in a good condition I hope. :) I feel so relieved that I am "relinked" with em. yeah. Anyway don, carol,terise are new to the sg groups from mine. Its realy good. Don is as jaded as me i think. cheers mate. its cool. araso~~ all went well.

After the party was the aussie-italy match. damn it was good. haha. we met mark there along with keith,soohee, yeong ghi, lud and don. there was this italy guy in a whole club of aussies. i respect his guts man. haha. oh well. but fucking ref pulled a stupid decision during the last minute to allow a penalty to italy when the whole match aussie played so well. oh well. damn. aussie aussie aussie, oioioi

suah la...

out with her today was good. she is like all accepting. but not as a bf though. I am like a friend. oh well. man I am really going to miss her. she is such a cutie as well.

All in all, I met so many old and new friends again. Met two Koreans who were really unafraid of meeting new people; the sweet and nice Soohee and scrawny and innocent Yeong ghi. I remember he got an egg thrown at him one night we met. Met nice and unjudgemental Singaporeans Don,Shannon, Terise, Desiree, Mark(mohawk) Zac, Mitchell, Melissa, Ray, Bernard, Rachel, Benson, Jason and Mark(korean gf) and also carol a Singaporeanized china girl. haha. all new people. also there were the old friends that i met long time ago. Manami, Chie sato, Woodie and his girl, Ji hae, Sam young, Yeon kyung, Teru and Mio. It was a whole reunion.

jonathan

jon is such a brudder. I had to drag him to mercure to accompany this over energetic monkey. brother I miss you man. haha. YOU know "SAME MAN" haha. we are "kinda same". yeah.

late updates for myself

Since meeting the group of new people from singapore it was a consistent few weeks of no time. haha. well I hope I remember the sequence of things that i did. in sydney now.

my name is

After adelaide, my name is Jaepal singh, you can call me J-P, or you can even call me jean-paul.
jean>pronounced jean like jeans. haha

parting moments

Its a long time since i last post something. My excuse. becos I have been meeting everyone and drinking so much I don't have time to update! and the World Cup fever has hit me! anyways, I will update it in accordance to the flow of time again. This will help me to remember it all again.
snippets first. hehe. Towards the ending frame of my stay in brissy. things went really exciting and well GOOD! met new SG pple that were really cool and accepting to everyone. I had a house party that brought everyone from all the different countries together. I met this 2 koreans, yeong ghi and soohee that were amazing friends that do not have qualms about making new friends and being one. Went to dreamworld with them , tiffy and peishan.AND of cos I went out with suah again. this time things felt much better. nonetheless i still feel like a jackass. Went out with DE, you'll know right. :) We'll meet again. wear the belt k. I am alrady in adelaide now. Will be heading to melbourne tmr. lets hope things will be smashing in Melb! yeah. I can't wait!

a slice of sg for myself

egg engulfing noodles! yeah. i cooked it.

downunder

downunder with don, bernard, king . germany costa rica match. saw raimund and vitali there. they are the germans that i met the first few weeks of school! haha. they are crazy man.

myself

finally she listens to the cd that I preped nicely.
I am really elated.
maybe tomorrow...
hide and seek... my fav. she likes it.
:)

I wasnt telling the truth again. but to the two i met with oj. I am sorry mates.

I am seriously a hopeless romantic. regardless of what people think of me.
on the contrary, I am not what you think I am. :) I am hard to understand. even I don't understand myself.

"take it as a summer romance" said my dear boy. maybe, maybe, I am seriously a hopeless romantic.

listen to "I know who you are but what am I" by Mogwai , softly....
its therapeutic to the soul.

tonight starkly reminded me the times when I found Zouk pointless. think i have reached saturation once more.

the wicker park soundtrack is really quite good. its so sad. haha. heals the melancholic. licks you gently. "How to be dead" by Snow Patrol

"flowers in december" by Mazzy Star. I think I should go live in a dream where I can meet the ONE.

many say its the way I talk, but its just me, the way I talk is just the way I talk. and some even say its the way I look. what look?! I am true to the one I am with! period. sentiments? anyone? haha.

I have a new housemate now. from korea. called kim eeu hwan. poor chap is failing all his modules here and is always sulking in his room. I feel like getting him out of his rut. but I feel lazy and demoralized like him. though I am better off in comparison. He does nothing. hides in his small fuck tup room just like mine and ... god knows what he does. I feel guilty. maybe I should do something. I dunno.

I have been looking for Bill Berry for so many days. have yet to find my preacher from King George Square. Bill where are you? I want to return your precious book to you so you can look at your daughter. I feel so much on my shoulders holding onto your book. God please help me find your sheep. I have been trying everytime for the past 4 weeks. looking for him. I am worried. People don't understand how important it is to me to return it to u and how it is so dear to you Bill. I want it in your arms before I leave Brisbane. god please help.

its already 6.02am I am still awake.

I think I am too conscious of that stupid tiff with her. dumb. Let it go.

"Everybody is Someone" By Lifehouse.

So many people I am meeting here. are putting themselves down before they give a shot at themselves. you can change what you think you would become. I know its cheesy. But people, "it's in your hands" you can do it if you put your conviction to it.

looking at dear boy feeling vexed makes me feel empty. haha. i have noone to be vexed for and abt. hehe. be true my boy. i respect you for that. u cant F the world if your were alone. but now. be true. like me.

It amazes me that the brazilians can take a huge part of their life off to just go surfing. and nothing else. just surf for 3 weeks. eat shit surf, eat shit surf sleep, eat shit surf shit. truly amazing. and the step brothers are really close. this stumped me and then I reconsidered the idea again and I was amazed once again. "brothers look out for one another" no matter what.
:)

something to say

"I am less of what I was than you are what you were." Jae

creative journals

All these bloody idiot projects are killing me. damn.