myself

finally she listens to the cd that I preped nicely.
I am really elated.
maybe tomorrow...
hide and seek... my fav. she likes it.
:)

I wasnt telling the truth again. but to the two i met with oj. I am sorry mates.

I am seriously a hopeless romantic. regardless of what people think of me.
on the contrary, I am not what you think I am. :) I am hard to understand. even I don't understand myself.

"take it as a summer romance" said my dear boy. maybe, maybe, I am seriously a hopeless romantic.

listen to "I know who you are but what am I" by Mogwai , softly....
its therapeutic to the soul.

tonight starkly reminded me the times when I found Zouk pointless. think i have reached saturation once more.

the wicker park soundtrack is really quite good. its so sad. haha. heals the melancholic. licks you gently. "How to be dead" by Snow Patrol

"flowers in december" by Mazzy Star. I think I should go live in a dream where I can meet the ONE.

many say its the way I talk, but its just me, the way I talk is just the way I talk. and some even say its the way I look. what look?! I am true to the one I am with! period. sentiments? anyone? haha.

I have a new housemate now. from korea. called kim eeu hwan. poor chap is failing all his modules here and is always sulking in his room. I feel like getting him out of his rut. but I feel lazy and demoralized like him. though I am better off in comparison. He does nothing. hides in his small fuck tup room just like mine and ... god knows what he does. I feel guilty. maybe I should do something. I dunno.

I have been looking for Bill Berry for so many days. have yet to find my preacher from King George Square. Bill where are you? I want to return your precious book to you so you can look at your daughter. I feel so much on my shoulders holding onto your book. God please help me find your sheep. I have been trying everytime for the past 4 weeks. looking for him. I am worried. People don't understand how important it is to me to return it to u and how it is so dear to you Bill. I want it in your arms before I leave Brisbane. god please help.

its already 6.02am I am still awake.

I think I am too conscious of that stupid tiff with her. dumb. Let it go.

"Everybody is Someone" By Lifehouse.

So many people I am meeting here. are putting themselves down before they give a shot at themselves. you can change what you think you would become. I know its cheesy. But people, "it's in your hands" you can do it if you put your conviction to it.

looking at dear boy feeling vexed makes me feel empty. haha. i have noone to be vexed for and abt. hehe. be true my boy. i respect you for that. u cant F the world if your were alone. but now. be true. like me.

It amazes me that the brazilians can take a huge part of their life off to just go surfing. and nothing else. just surf for 3 weeks. eat shit surf, eat shit surf sleep, eat shit surf shit. truly amazing. and the step brothers are really close. this stumped me and then I reconsidered the idea again and I was amazed once again. "brothers look out for one another" no matter what.
:)