Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap

Thanks sus. intro me this song. hah.

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to fall
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads - heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that its all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

next

seems like its not going to work. oh well.

its jaes wicked world for moi

jaded. seriously.

j: so how did it go?
ck: its been a long time anyway. a different type of person that i normally go out with. interesting and yet its not smooth. dunno. never try before. so its v diff.

j:r u getting deaf?
ck: yes.

j:diff?
ck: v v diff. dunno what to do. wait and see what happens next time lo. seemingly different side of the world. but yet possible.

quiet charms of alt people

its been a long time since i last chatted with someone for so long. hmmm.
quiet charms.

i wouldn't know. maybe i will. I dont know.

closure

I found closure when i knew that Geraldine was doing great after I left. I still couldn't hold back my grief although I only knew her for such a short time compared to the others at the memorial.

Geraldine has a big heart. She passed with a bigger one. I vaguely remember her telling me that she had a heart condition when we were discussing about the horse riding event that she went with the SSA.

GOD BLESS Geraldine. may you find peace.
geraldinemaglee.multiply.com

life is really short.

in memory of Geraldine.

life is really short. i knew geraldine on exchange in brissy.
time with her was good as she was an old student that is starting afresh at QUT.
She was pursuing her degree in film production.

her mum broke the news to me this afternoon. I was shocked. seriously. if i am not wrong, she was 29 when i knew her. she stayed at Unilodge of QUT and came over to rochester once to look at my place. we ate at the malaysian food stall a few times too. She's always the inquisitive student in the video production class as well.
She had big plans after finishing her degree. she wanted to form a small production house in sg.

she left us last week.


life is really short. I am regreting that i never took the time to contact her after i came back to singapore. I did not have her msn and i didnt have her singapore number. I always thought that i would see her again when she comes back to singapore. like how i meet everyone when i see them on the streets in sg. pple, please make an effort to try to get back to friends u haven't met for a long time. or try to make efforts to patch things up between people that u have bad blood with. dont leave things hanging. life is to short to live with baggages.

I shall start with mine.

you will always be remembered.

Jae

selamat hari raya

right after mark's birthday from still road. don gave me and desi a lift to china town. and we bypassed the place I have been thinking of visiting for the past month. hehe. anyone interested to check it out?

881

Alright. I know I am slow to catc 881 only now. but hey, or the third time in 24 years the whole family watched a movie in the cinemas together! I am extremely happy that both the two old ones enjoyed the movie. as usual they were amused by the hokkien script. haha. and so was I.

Anyway 881 is definitely the best excuse to bring your parents out for movies. (If you haven't been doing so in your last 10 years.) the reason being they will be able to relate to it. in more ways than one. though royston didnt exactly represent the entire generation of the baby boomers living in Singapore. but it sure did show the hokkien community. The Tee Gong (sky god) was one of the things in 881 that was extremely close to what is and was happening in hokkien families. Maybe cos royston himself is a tan, a hokkien. thats why so much of the movie is hokkien oriented. well maybe Jae should do a cantonese version of the heartlanders.

anyway back to the movie. the cuts that royston used were amazingly nostalgic to his last number ,, "15". the anthems that were spewed by mindee and yann yann sounded like the ah beng anthems of 15 as well. but nontheless it was entertaining.

although I was at the 3rd row from the front, it is still an enjoyable movie. Best movie to bring your baby boomers friends to.

Wicked Rating: 4 / 5

stop blocking me. its irritating.

let down

ATB is such a let down. oh well. dragonfly is not very fun either. shitty.
fyp is definintely gearing up. u see everyone piaing and sneaking arnd. haha.
well thats how its wicked.

dragonfly

thats me sleeping already at dragonfly.... not. zixuan, yiming and lawrence were there too. it was surprisingly quite good at dragonfly. the bands were tight and the performances were entertaining. although abit cheenapok. but i like. haha. i think i am really mandopop like sari puts it. haha. ok. anyway crunch time. ohh aunties at dragonfly terrorized me half the time i was there. it made the whole night more interesting. haha. cheers.

Follow this link and watch this movie!

I don't know how many people read this but one of my mates has a very cool movie that he shot and you guys should take a look at this.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbfpLE3hRKY

humbling

on the train back yesterday, I met one of my recruits.
I managed to remember his surname.... 'Chok". Amazed by how i was able to remember.
anyway we were talking about the past and now. and suddenly he said something which i seem to have left to the back of my head in my life. my mantra. He said, "I still remember what you said last time to us. Don't ever let anyone say that you are F*^K up." Because you are not and you can be able to prove them wrong. this totally humbleed me that What I used to do to touch lives and all has been lost somewhere amidst my pursuit of other things.

Wake up call. time to bring things back. even for people like you.
"Don't EVER let anyone one say that you are fugged up" Never.
jaes wicked world...

Paul Van Dyk @ Zouk 1st September 2006

marvelliciously-stupendous-kickass-wicked night with World's Number 1 DJ.

For those of you out there who missed it... oh well. lets just say you haven't tried something which gives esctasy... as Kae puts it... but is legal.

Its been 3 times since he came and I missed his gigs. I can safely say, I will not miss anymore of his gigs again.

God it blew me away. Being consumed by music. For yesterday night I was one of those that got a little wet with sweat from dancing haha.!

But hell yea. it was a great time with KJ, Kai and Jamie. god.

PVD was so progressive it was almost orgasmic. holding back the bass till it was time to release the tunes. god. MINDBLOWING!

look around

I look around me again to see the faces I saw for the past 3 years. the jae-ded-ness in their eyes. people not talking to people that they were once familiar with at a point in their academic lives. it further saddens me to how a society can be this fake and yet thrive. wicked isnt it? maybe one of the readers here can enlighten me... for i am jae-ded. is this considered fake then? or is it just a sign of people getting too wary of others? preventing themselves from getting their egos hurt?

Mark's class is making me worry about my past entries about some specific people. maybe its time to delete them? haha. SIM.

in closing..... an beginning

as this chapter closes. wickedness surrounds. things that are left untold have surfaced to light and has undone what has been tigthened for so long.

happy for he is not as he is jae-ded. sad for he is neither as he is numb. ditched the piece he did not for he has given up.

feather it is for now till the next torrent comes.

wicked times shrouds as the inevitable period approaches. but light shall prevail with the fellowship that is formed.

...

I wonder how fake can things get. how mindfucked can i get. nightmares even. god. help me end this.



anyway loof was great. all thanks to danny. we even had the 'I "heart" FYP' badge.



i was thinking about all the cliques in school. and i wonder why there seemed to be so much differences between everyone. i mean all of us are in our early 20s already. and its not like we have not seen enough movies or experiences with other people. WHY AREN'T PEOPLE TALKING TO PEOPLE? even after 3 years of education and after seeing everyone else in school for the past 3 years.



yes there is bad blood between some people. but why the silence even when there is no bad blood? why am i not talking to stanley in school? why is almost everyone not talking to samantha in school? and even nathan. I cant help but think that the school is filled with alot of ego pple. Not that they are bad people, you know. being egotistical doesnt mean u are a mean person. like i myself admit that i have an ego. and maybe thats the reason why i dont talk to some people. oh well. i promise to be better from now on. hope you will too.



schools going to be challenging this sem. too all you fellow mates. strive on. and we all know... we love FYP!! :P

1st day of sch

i wld say its bad.
had to meet after 4 months. silence is deafening.

SG again

I am beginning to feel the toll of flying too much. that means i am not suited to be an air steward. haha.

well well. now i finally know my roots that i am based in Guangzhou and that my grand father's relatives have already dissappered from this world. i feel more rooted.

the next would be the trip back to taiwan to take a look at my mum's side of the equation.

life takes a stand still as we take it in to enjoy the times when we chill. its not too bad. but slacking too long and not doing shit IS shit. so i've gotta start moving my ass around more.

do unto others what they do to you? feel what they feel.

once again... ... rantings

well well. its been a long time. now i am back in singapore, but tomorrow i am going back to Guangzhou with my dad to search for our relatives. haha. well well. its going to be yet another trip to middle kingdom.

reading my previous posts.... i realise angst is such a stupid feeling that anyone shouldbe feeling. but hey, if we never did felt angsty then.... we wouldnt know how sweet happiness is. right!?

like if we never felt pain... we wouldnt know how good being pain free feels ... right? haha. yeap.
or like if we never had diarrhea we wouldnt appreciate normal bowel movements. as discussed with whye. haha. :)

oh. i love singapore.