people in my life. :)

I am not going to put anything on :)

It is true, i miss u.
But sometimes I wonder if things could happen again. bring us back to where we started. I think it would be noting short of amazing.

It's nice to see this side of you that I never saw back then. Heart warming and it touches me. I am happy that we are now here. I hope you are too.

:) Jae's wicked world.

Men are fickle.

Men are fickle.
In a matter of days, love can be transferred from one object of affection to another.
Men are fickle.
In a matter of minutes, affection can be showered upon one and shifted to another.
Men are fickle.
In a matter of seconds, what is felt now, is all forgotten and left behind, from one to another.

Who's to blame for changing hearts. No one, as Men are fickle; you are and so am I.


BKK and HK back to back with some of the closest people that I have right now.
HK experience: unspeakable, somewhere only we know.
BKK experience: idiots having fun together, priceless.
This Friday, it's gonna be my brother's wedding and then its down to serious business, no more slacking.


P.S. People who can't write decent English irritate me to the core.

Choices - wake up - wake up 2010.

Hey ya all.
Hope 2010 has been good for yas.
Anyways, it has been a hectic 2009, but I am certain 2010 will be better.
Full of ups and equaled by more downs.
Many things happened through the last quarter of this year, some of which I would believe are more disappointing than I thought it would be.

Thinking that the time spent with someone would change them for the better in terms of making choices in life... ... I was wrong.
Humans tend to veer towards things that they are more familiar with, people that they are more common with, things/people that they are used to, hanging out with the crowd/nest that they are so used to, going back to their old habits, backsliding to their sins... ... all because of ... comfort? ... loneliness?
I don't know. We've all made mistakes in our lives, but do we go back to them and dig a deeper hole the next time we encounter it? I guess this is the thing that I hope all of us do spend a little time thinking.

Honestly, I haven't been making the best choice in one of my aspects in life, that's one of my resolutions in life now. Perhaps, the biggest.

I just realized I didn't set any resolutions for 2010. " k k k " possibly because of the state of "whiteness" in my life now. But I know this would only be temporal.

Time to wake up. :)


HK was bitter sweet. Emotions and feelings were lost to the world of translation. The time and distance that parted us collapsed into about 72 hours. The level of comfort is beyond given the time spent away for more than 3 years. It's truly Jae's wicked world playing with me. I am glad things happened and I hope it will again.

Little gestures tickle me. Simple words amaze me.


Waiting on the World to Change- John Mayer + lyrics

It's been trying

lately.....

there will be sunshine after the rain. tumultuous month to go and I have to finish up what i need to do.

anyone has referrals for me? :)
Life goes on....

Jae's wicked world.

So far.....

things has been going good so far i guess.
Thanks to alot of faith and determination and support from family, friends and colleauges. thanks everyone.
Its been 9 tough months this year.
I've accomplished more than $100k in value in contacts.
I've to give myself a pat on the back. :)

Thanks 小鸭 :)

I AM TALKING TO YOU FREAK

sigh... another one bites the dust.s

I HIT TarGET FINALLY!

6 months of stress released in one afternoon. indulgence in exhilaration lead to extreme fatigue for the arvo. thanks to all that spurred me on.

time to press on and pin more deals.

MGMT "Kids" Video

This is gonna be the next hit. for sure.

doo doo doo doo doo doo doooo doo dooooo ......... escape.

Jaeded

super jaded by BS. what a bad timing to start our first jobs in such a climate. freakz.

4 Xmases

Awesome movie.
extremely witty conversation by vince vaughan. extremely believable scenarios for current couples.
its been a long time since I laughed so much in a movie and forgot about things happening around.
intelligent references to current things happening in the world today.
watch it.
well worth the time.
funny and yet heart warming.

if you are considering what to watch if u can only spare time to watch one movie baby. please go watch this. i know you will love it and laugh your stupid laugh.

5 out of 5.

closed song! yeah!

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sweep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing:
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt, pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you know there was never, never an honest word
That was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in.
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become
Revolutionaries Wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells are ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

Hear Jerusalem bells are ringings
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can not explain
I know Saint Peter will call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

It deserves a post.

This CD has been on repeat for the past 3 weeks! hah

Roman Cavalry Choir's singing !

We all need a break from things

Things are happening around that make u sad and down sometimes. right?
There is more to to things in life than harping on setbacks and things that put you emotionally or physically down.
Its how we pick ourselves from from the dust and work towards making things better.

Doing bad at work... pep yourself up and move on to the next task to prove yourself better.
Having a lousy time developing a good friendship with one of your "friends"... invest your time in other friends that have the time for you. it would 1. do you good. 2. expand your social circle. 3. do your other friends good cos you are a serious friend.
being brought a few notches down due to something at home... pep yourself up cos people around you genuinely do care for you and want you to be strong as well. cos when they've seen that you are beginning to cope better with things, things would soon come easier for you and your friends to come back to your life.


there are better things in life to do than to harp on negative things. as edmund says. focus on the positive energy and the positive karma will flow to you. focus on the negative and you would attract all the negative energy around you.

I rather be in the former. have to try to stay out of the negative cloud. so should everyone else.

everyday now

now everyday. everyday u see arrows pointing downwards. everyday they highlight charts after charts. why didn't this appear earlier when it was already falling? oh well. whatever. i dont know but u see it yeah.

i hate this.

freak

dont take my financial outlooks seriously.

i am not financially trained.

clear and present danger

its funny how the media now is not even highlighting that the financial crisis is very much gonna hit big time.

there are all these tell tale signs right from the beginning, when Freddie and Fannie were going down.
and even b4 that the market was already sliding and the gold was already rising and fixed commodities also.
but yet, during the NDR2008, it was only hinted...
well of course it is a move to not create a state of hysteria and small time vendors from a sudden fit to throw away all their shares in a shot. and not only that other bigger holders might just do to try to cash in on whatever that's left.
of course.. i am not affected cos i haven't got enough money floating around on indexes to be affected much. but if u were someone with alot of money stuck on the lines... would you risk it? i dont know. but i havent got much faith within this coming 5-6 months or so.
govt's know how to play the game i say.

country's indexes are kept up not only by media but also the performance of our neighboring indexes.
thus, it is definite that we should try to spend wisely.

I just hope it doesnt affect the region too too much... cos i am after all in sales. and it depends on the outlook of the situation. if the media starts to playup the downturn so much..... i am afraid people would be more and more thrifty. tts not god for me.

i dont know. but lets hope. it doesnt fall too much. anyway boys and girls. hang on to your jobs.

finally it has got to me.

finally it has got to me that this is the reality of it all.
somehow i hate to watch romantic programs that feed you the situation that is happening all around you.
and yet u know it sucks but u still hang on to it.
i wont know whats the best way to deal with things. just wished that things in life were much simpler u know.

Word & Work

words said previously now mean nothing now.
tsk.

i still know not what to do with this.
tsk.

###

works been bringing me on a roller coaster.
realizing that I am always deciding on things without knowing the real deal.
i am a person led by passion. I would consider myself being an intuitive person.
that sometimes may not be too good. but it helps u to decide.
following your heart. they say. that leads you to know that you won't be regretting what you decide upon.

sometimes we think too much about what is happening in the present and get logged down by what might happen in the future. cliche as it may sound. living the life you have now is important, cos it is present. something like that la.

so i guess what i want to say is.. yes u somehow see the future of how your life might be. but if the future doesnt look that bright ... does it mean u dont live and love your present?

tomorrow will be a better day.

god bless u guys out there.

thanks jayden. I still remember u.

something nice happened today warmed my heart

I was at my aunt's void deck. I saw this little indian boy buying something at the local snack shop. when i turned to face the lift away from him, I heard. "its ok, you are my friend. I buy for you." Immediately, I turned around and tried to see who the snack was for. he was walking beside another little malay boy. and they were both smiling. elated I am with the scene of pure innocence and friendship.

somehow i romanticized that they met and played around the playground every night and became friends. It warms my heart to know that friendships are still being forged in void decks of HDBs. i think about the times when i played soccer with the rest of my primary school classmates at the slope of block 46. I think of the other kids I played soccer with and didn't know their names. I wish that they are doing well in whatever they are doing now.

I saw Eusoff,my classmate in primary 1 and 2. I can recognise him. But I doubt he does to me. But I was happy when I saw him. he was a less than mediocre student back in primary school. always kena scolding from Ms Lum Choi Yun, my form teacher then. Always wondered how the society would treat him. At a young age, and as the class monitor *yaya me* I always kinda protected the minority and the weak. But yet I didnt know what I could do. but today, I am happy to see him all grown up. I am happy. Delta Circus Primary School! yeah

i think the school song goes something like that

We pledge our school to support,
with faithful honest spirit true.
to do the very best, with faith and honour for you.
determination we will have.
in order that, we may progress with consideration for others,
and we strive for successssss.
in work and play, rugged and robust we will be,
in preparation for the dayyyyy,
when we serrrrrrr-vvvvve our country.

NIGHT!

u said

dont compare or pitch yourself with someone that is less of u. u wont improve and it is pointless

... ... ...

pocket me from tribulations

sleeve up so i miss the scars

shirt keeps yous underneath

tie me up so blind me

unbutton to let it go

song rec

blardy sam hehe ask me listen to this song.
make me even more emo.

8/18/2008 11:37:56 PM Samuel Hehe to Jae "like very angry but still very romantic"

well said. and relates.

in contemplation

this is different. when you are constantly pushed to pick up the phone and call someone you dont know.

this is different. when you are constantly monitored if you are doing something constructive.

this is different. when you are constantly thinking on your toes with with your nerves wrecking like bush whackers.

this is different. when you are constantly being pressured by yourself to move one step closer to closing.

this is different. when you are constantly being pressured by your neighbour to bring in the next deal.

this is different. when you are constantly on the look out after work for new business opportunities.

this is different. when you are constantly thinking about how to seal the next deal tomorrow.

this is different. when you are constantly reminding yourself that this is going to be worth it.

this is not different. I know I can do it. and so can you.

loves to all the JWW readers. I am thinking of you peeps and my blessings.

no how?

no pang chance one. just pia all the way. no use trying to be nice to leave some fish for others. just catch everything first and eat them slowly. no such thing as teamwork market. PIA PIA PIA! chop chop chop chop CHOOOOOOOOP!

Mw

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Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol



We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

tis the season ....

for breakups... . .. and emotional turmoil.
so many relationships around me and my friends are facing the trials of time and society.
so many friends around me are facing issues that they have never faced for a good 20 years of their lives.
why......

maybe cos this is the time when we move on to another phase of our lives.... stepping on into society and embracing it all! HAH. perspectives changes. lifestyles changes. stress levels changes. income changes. friends changes. environment changes. responsibility changes. health changes. time changes.... everything.

when we are faced with such changes... do we take it up in our stride and move on to become a stronger person...... amidst adversity would we crumble and get left in the dust.

friends..... lets all be strong. there are times where we need other friends around to hear us. lend a ear to somebody today. but dont forget to let out what is inside u.. to someone that lends u the ear. (this sounds like some social campaign, could be an FYP idea! ha!)

thanks bro for offering yours today without me wanting to. appreciate it.

chapter ....

can't wait for things to start and things to change.

this time, i know it will be different.

version change! yea. come on me.

SuDDen

Suddenly I just thought of my trip to Sydney and I recalled spending a wicked time with Keith and Drew watching Superman.... DRUNK! hahaha. kickass stuff.

ALSO!
at 3 monkeys with Shimpei, Neha and Seema! great dinner with them at where they worked.

splendid time with Buddy Ben at his place and the places for makan.


thanks peeps of syd. love ya'll. hope you've been great and fine.

ups and downs.

the week was kinda like a roller coaster of events in life.

early week i saw the passing of one of my close mate's mum.
its sad to see something so heart breaking going through someone close to you.
this was the first for me at my age. we didn't really know what to do at a time like that. my condolences goes to the family. through all the emotions, the family's bond proves strong. amidst the weary faces, you see strength and love in their eyes.
don't worry jam. she is watching over you. like always.

end week i saw the union of one of my close school mates.
it was great to see something so heart warming going through someone close to you.
this was the first for me at my age. I did know what to do this time round, to be joyous and merry. My blessings go to the happily married couple. through the emotions, the family's bond is strong. the couple is visibly tired from the entire day, which started at 8am in the morning, till the entire process ended at about 9pm. but amidst the weary faces, you see bliss and hope in their eyes. For such a joyous occasion, thoughts of joy,love and excitement fills you to the veins. my hair was standing when they took their vows, it touched my heart to see two individuals know that they are with the one.

with all my blessings. Edwin(uncle) and Eunice! happily ever after!

rant: Gaia

Extreme cynicism has brought heaps of thoughts: one of which.

The world is getting overpopulated.
With all scientific equations, they work to find an equilibrium to level the weight on both sides.
The world is counter-acting. Tell tale signs. Climate change. Food crisis. Deadly diseases. Earthquakes. Hurricanes. Crazy people blowing themselves up.

With all these things happening, the earth population is still growing exponentially. I really think we may not live to see the next century. pessimism aside, I do believe that science will be able to find solutions that may shift the critical mass to tip the tolerance of the equilibrium. or either that... an earth shaking catastrophe that would wipe out a huge number of people on Gaia. That will set things to a halt for Gaia to heal.

She is crying. all the world leaders admit that there is a problem. But none of them would want to sacrifice national development over the state of the Earth. They feel that it is not their responsibility. Third world will feel that they have the "right" to develop, and the first world should slow down. Fat Hope.

Personal opinion: no administration is going to do anything substantial. Gaia will fall within my lifetime. our lifetime. sad to say. i am a pessimist.


what do you think?

yi gah or zhong uy zi dou dap onh le. dan hai yat zit dou hou mor hu er. orh yi ga zhen hai mm zee dou dim gao. dong maidim gai, ci ci dou hai gam. shen ah! bei oor yat dit zi dim. orh yi ga zhen ge mm zi dim zhou.

things are getting all too familiar. looking at my 08 resolutions. things dont seem to be going right.

wonder what i will do.

thinking in the dark and running my fingers through your tresses.
i think about how we met and smile to myself, all the hits and misses.

things seem to happen in a cycle.

I thought things would be different. but i am hating things cos it seems to follow a similar path. shit.

pix. from the past.

took this photo at the pilot interview. haha. bad preparations for the SIA pilot interviews. word of advice for those out there who are going. please do your homework k.









with the boys at timbre.











this guy's left leg is shorter than his right. find him on the fourth floor of CS.










XF's birthday KTV session. they were singing spice girls. bwhaha











the trip that was planned and unplanned with the snakes. on a WHITE BOARD. conference sial.











other cadet pilot hopefuls.













PK at Al Ameen. happily Zi Pai-ing













baby girl. love you.














C in action part 1















C caught in action part 2






FYP Presentation prep. GYSB. i think we did well. apparently the school thinks otherwise. where is our + ! i still can't believe school. at how academic it is. i guess thats why it is academic.

loves max

Estelle featuring Kanye West - American Boy
this is going to be the next overplayed song i swear.

issues issues issues

compare compare compare
sensitiveities sensitivities sensitivities
emotions emotions emotions
overwhelming overwhelming overwhelming
secrets secrets secrets
reservations reservations reservations
contigencies contigencies contigencies
decisions decisions decisions
happiness unhappiness happiness

you've gotta watch this! i swear!

you;ve gotta watch this!!! laugh till my stomach hurt.
mandy kaisiao. ahah.

reminded me of the benny lava shit. but this is way way better. this is REALLY FUNNY.!

now

feeling like a walking pestilence.
passing off meeting close friends.
giving up on meeting acquaintances.
having not met the beloved for ages.
needing to get out of this immobility.
hating my incompetence in handling dispute.
craving to decide on what to do futuresque.
trying to stop the insatiable need to burp.*&^#(@

help.

nice.

melee-built to last.
somehow this song was heart warming. dedicated by fraz.

backlog

Many many many things happened over the past few weeks.
Apart from Chinese New Year and My birthday with no presents. haha.
BUT! I did get 2 one dollar coins from a special someone. hehe.

it was just FYP FYP and school and quirky.
Loads of things to be done and done.
Some things happened that kinda shocked me, Friends, please consider those that are around you that you may think that they are friends, but you are just but an acquaintance. You see, I am a person that offers my true-est friendship if i see you. But I think it is time that I change. This world is sick. full of people that talk about stuff about you and judge you. but the point is, WHO knows YOU? WHO!? NO ONE DOES! EXCEPT THE ONES CLOSEST TO YOU!

but I am also someone that respects what others say (have to SPEW from their mouths.) I mean its alright that they say that I am disgusting or anything/ I respect your opinion. I am fine. You Can be fat like fuck, but i think if u are comfortable in your own skin. I think u are admirable.

Recently I felt so betrayed. but nonetheless I am unhurt. but 人言可畏. it stings but i am ok. Please Do not BE shocked if I come up to you and ask you. whether YOU WILL BEtray me? only because I want to keep those that are real beside me. AND shake off those that aren't worth it.

Brothers, you know I will bleed for u, if u need me to.


EVERYONE work hard for FYP! anyway I am probably going to join clarbear and the other boys for a INDOCHINE trip. any other boys interested? drop me a headsup. this trip. not for the faint hearted.



quirky. I (L) U.

control. dont lose it.

u are better than this.
take flight.
u have the control.

MY WILL BE DONE

happens that my birthday falls on the day of the lunar new year!
I WILL HAVE FANTASTIC LUCK TO COME!

MORE RESOLUTE IN DECISIONS
MORE MONEY
MORE DRIVE
MORE HEALTH (I know its grammatically wrong)

NO MORE RUBBISH R/S.

I WILL LOOK BACK AT THIS POST AND SMILE!

JAE's Wickeeed world.

dysfunctional X 2

i am 2 times the state of dysfunction as the day progresses. haha.

jae's wicked world.

deem gai mui qi dou hai gum yong jek. gor gor dou wan gen orr. orr zan hei gum cha mei? mui qi dou hei hou qi dan fong meen gum. yuu gor yau yan tuck tong orr gong zou mei wui gum lei. oor xiong ji dou yun yan wor. hai.... zhen hei sai hei. ZONG YAU YAT KIN SI! HUI DEY DOU HAI YOU YAN DOU HYUET GAH!

ah keet ah. lei lor lei sui zei. fu guai.

angry

I am very angsty today. spoiled my entire day.
what rubbish about you being disappointed with me. damn. i am still angry.

lost my mp3 player.

hint hint *winks

random photos from phone

we were doing project, me dee yy and my. left a pice of flower on yy's hair.

PK has a shop named after him


we were studying at 5th floor. sam biatch


I was helping shah for his video shoot. he was getting chummy with jezs haha.


the old old telecom logo from the old supreme court


ya. see the white thing on her ear. thats it.


i was feeling stupid and had a head band on. clar liked it so much he wore it to one of the canteens that day. we felt we owned the place when we walked into the canteen.


helm is like engrossed in his love letter to someone. haa





pk.

me and my bro made a cheese cake. white choc orea cheese cake. haaha. nice. i like. pleaes me and i might make u one next time.






hiao clarbear. the most hiao CS boy.
dong with us on 5th level. studying for exams. my last time doing this kinda stuff. i think i am going to miss school.


Anyway pple. above and beyond is @ zouk on the 9th and steve lawler on the 8th. dunno which on to go to. Bleah.

random stuff

who ah left the comment saying can give me 10? aha.

where to get clothes this CNY?
this seasons clothes suck. treaded the entire marina, suntec, orchard AND THERE WAS NONE! even the ladies ones are like..... soso... rubbish clothes all around can. ZARA had a nice semi formal black shirt though. caught our eyes definitely. in the end i got this mat looking shirt from Ben Sherman. Sus said it doesnt look that good. but hey babe, its jae loh u are talking about. i can carry things off well k. haha.

I had 2 shirts tailored today with danny. I will let u all know if they turn out fantastic. the tailor was donned in Emporio Armani top to bottom and was called Daniel. If things turn out well. i am going to go back to him from now on. High collar, wide collared, 3 button, long barrel, tapered cut, no pockets, long enough for me to tuck in and very nice material. and it costs less than any shirt from Zara, Topman, X-square and Ben Sherman (only brands that i buy shirts from). THen if he is really good. I will recommned everyone there. everyone will look great for a good cost. he is so pro that he singled out all the elements I look at when I get shirts. and I didnt even talked to him. he is that good. i think he is damn pro. Lets see what happens.

anyway, i think i am dejavu-ing on some things. lets hope this will be different. quirky.

my birthday wish list.

My 25th Birthday List. HAHA. Can't believe I am writing this down.

But here it goes.
1. Macbook Air
2. Handphone
3. Watch
4. Porsche
5. True Friendships
6. Rest
7. A+ for FYP!
8. Good health and Prosperity (cos my birthday falls on the first day of CNY!)
9. A genuinely happy 2008
10. Love
11. BIG ANG POWS!!
12. Happiness
13. Peace
14. I dont know what else.

Ha. I just want zen. and peace.

thank god i didnt die today

I was distracted by my specs that was flying from the left of my dashboard to the drivers side. and i looked at my specs the flew to my right side of my seat. I was doing a left turn into AYE Tuas from school. and the next thing i knew i mounted the curb on the right side. the freaking wall was so near me from the drivers seat. luckily I swerved back onto the road.
thank god i didnt die. first thing on my mind.
second thing. fuck my dad is going to kill me.
third. how much the repair gonna cost. damn it.

so i finally know, the research money is for paying this repairs. damn.
I am sibei suay.
yesterday the stupid crazy bitch. today this.

GOD please dont do this to me.
New year coming. must do alot of things to change my luck!

Yesterday just wasnt my day.

I was supposed to get the legal documents signed by my models today. and so after getting my hair cut at far east and meeting danny for dinner, we decided to walk towards suntec to bala where i can meet destiny and boonseer to sign the release forms. and that is when things start to go downhill........ I already had a very very long day....

we were passing MacDonald house and then ALL OF A SUDDEN... this 50plus auntie started to scold me. "F*#^ YOU! you get aids. f... you. ........ you f... your moth..r and ......." When it comes to family, it means war for me. I exploded and "F back" and then I told her i was going to call the police. She ran onto the road and shouted "Call la! MY husband is an ex police Inspector. I am not afraid. I call the police! I call the police!" while in the middle of the road. for a moment i was thinking. please dont get knocked down by a car. cos i dont want to have trauma. And I was shouting also."you are so going to lose this when the police comes"

well! to my surprise a police car that was on patrol was THERE! and it pulled over! the coporal and the sergeant came out. as the coporal approached us, me and danny were like telling him the situation. Then that stupid bitch kept shouting behind us "DONT LIE DONT LIE. WANT TO FIGHT RIGHT! THEN NOW NO GUTS! DONT GO AWAY!" then to my awe! the sergeant SHOUTED "LADY! PLEASE DONT SHOUT! I AM WARNING YOU FOR THE LAST TIME!" at the top of his voice....... ok thanks to the sergeant. I found this part quite amusing.

So me and danny decided that it is stupid to hang on. we left our details to the police officer. but if she press charges she'll be the one in shit as she broke at least 2 of the 4 elements of DEFEMATION! ha! but then again she might not even have the money to pay for defemation charges. anyway after a while i realised she reeked of a smell of a HOBO. so i concluded she must be not in the right frame of mind. meaning she is SIAO. so we decided to leave and rush to meet desti. and then to my amazement, she followed and say "DONT GO! NOW NO GUTS TO STAY! yadayada.. you get the picture." and deep in my mind then, i was thinking. what happen to the earlier fiasco with my family members. CRAZY BITCH!

FUC-ing bitch. I am reallly really damn angry. even until now. my whole body is red with blood pumped. its like the last time.

this kind of things seems to happen once in a while to me. the last time was in brissy. haha. funnny as hell and yet damn bloody irritating.

and when i finally reach BALA. I am really tired. Met desti and sent a wrong msg to her. I apologize.

and then now. i have to prep for tmr's 刷屁屁。damnit. in a while... i am tired from the whole fiasco with stuff today.

i will do the self assessment later for frazer. man. low morale.

刷好屁屁准备啦！

赶紧准备好一切开始刷屁屁。 东西做不好，就要受教训。 oh no.

favest song for now

here are my favourtie-est songs for these few weeks!

MUSE-Starlight


Peter, Bjorn & John - Young Folks


thanks gary for telling me the song title for young folks

Facebook compromised.

my FACEBook account was compromised. something or someone hacked into my account and posted stupid adverts on others wall. damn it.

Anyway GYSB, getyoursexyback is going outdoors and will need all the support of friends and family. please lend me your helping hands once more.

achmed the terrorist.

haha! SILENCE! I KILL YOU!

friends

looking back in life, there are some friends that you wished you had not spoiled the friendship because of stupid reasons, like money, ambition, girls, competition what not. I personally try to not lose any friends that i have along the way. at least i try. It is also part of me to try to amend things when things have gone wrong. I wish everyone would give everyone a chance. I mean we were once good friends weren't we? why cant things be okay between people and not try to shun people. shall we? I mean we all have our ego, but ego is only worth how much a person can pay u monetarily, to some extent. so why be bought over? just live with it move on and build a better world. Pay it forward.

life should be happy and not jaded. I remember the lift I got from PK he was saying. "If you look at singaporeans on the road. they all look sad, depressed or angry. no one smiles." I agree with him. Shall we all smile more. and not throw others weird looks when they are smiling to themselves. lets live in a happy society. I notice it because i smile to myself when i think of happy stuff. but people just say this guy SIAO! come on. singaporeans should wake up their minds and open up their hearts.

"let out your inner child" "everything is gonna be alright"

so world hold on.... jaes wicked world.

HELP!

ARGH!!! fark! pple are sending out quantifying emails to me to say they are not at fault! for gods sake i am pleading. PLS STOP FARKING ME UP!!! GAWD!stop please~~ ! i beg u. please be responsive.

Ladder Thoery

I am reading this website that Lesley refered. haha. interesting pull out quote.

http://laddertheory.com/

"
Dreams of a Final Theory

I think is very very close to a final analysis of how a woman's rating system works. If you are very attractive, rich, and novel and show no interest in her she is almost guaranteed to want to fuck you. Indeed, isn't this the very definition of Alpha Male? In this way we have derived from our theoretical framework an idea that agrees with observation and experiment to many degrees of accuracy. It also provides a frameowrk for the Logic. Strive to be attractive, novel and aloof and you will go far.
"

I HATE IT!

I hate not being able to get the required people to get things done by the required time! IT SUCKS AND IT IS NOT EASY! darn! god please help me with this.
this is causing so much pain to me and GYSB. PLEASE GOD HELP!

IT WAS ALREADY IN ALL MY PREVIOUS MAILS! WHY? AND NOW THE ENTIRE THING IS GETTING F*#KED! ARGH!

Resolutions.

so many things happened.
I am down. I am tired.
I have things to do. have to gear up.
I am Jaeded.

Thembi and Bulelwa had this 3 Ds to change thing.
1 - Decision - you have to decide to want to change
2 - Dedication - you have to be dedictated to your change.
3 - Discipline - well self explanatory. I may have gotten the last D wrong.

AND As thembi put it, it is hard to fulfill a definitive resolution. So here are my bunch of general sounding ones.
1) I have to decide what I want to do after I grad.
2) I will not get into shitty situations romantically.
3) I will love my friends and family many many.
4) I will try to meet up with friends as much as I can. SO DONT PUSH ME!
5) I will live healthier than I was in 2007. I MUST!
6) I WILL BE HAPPIER THAN I WAS IN 2007! 2008 YEAH!

dbl o new year eve 08'

one word. ugly girls. haha. but i had fun. same same dancing away.

the Story ....... bridge ......

Mazzy Star - Flowers in December


Mogwai - "I Know You Are But What Am I ?"


Stereophonics - Maybe Tomorrow


Aqualung - Strange & Beautiful


Snow Patrol - How To Be Dead


Death cab for cutie- Movie script ending


Lifehouse - Everybody is Someone
Please go to youtube and see it. cos it is too good.

Imogen Heap * Goodnight & Go Video


Imogen Heap - Hide and Seek

the drill-the drill

david guetta. yesterday nights welcoming song for us at 3.20am. wooohooo

i am an architect

my wife for a few hours. haha

upcoming movie star lo. watch out for her.

mrrrr mrrrrr mrrrr

zoy qi zheng meng orh hai jin kwat tou. yi qei zong hai hou dai yat kor teem. lin xut lok qi teem. di sam zei ge zi mei zhen mmm hou sao. shui yan wui zhi or dek gam shou leh? ho neng ying wai orr zi zhok zi shou le. dan hai, zhou met lan ye you bai bai dou gam zek?

zhong you. yu go lei hei shueng moh lei gam shi orr hai ni dou sei meh ge wa leh? oor qeng Lei Zik Kak Lei Hoi! oor li dou mmm foon ying lei di yan. ham ka fu guai. ni duo mmm lun dat lei sa ye. zhou xun lei gong lei mmm geng hui lei hoi lei ge wah, lei gang ga mm sai kaeng orh la. 100% you dim? sek dou sek zor le.

qi sat, wo you mm hai wa jin yan yat gor, zi gei xiong wan go hou dit ge dong ban ze mah, dan hei zou meh you wui gam nan zek? oor gei tiu kin hou cha meh. gam yat Cindy tong Joan dou you tieh hei go, yi qie hoi mother dou mun, zhou meh oor zong dan shen? li gou men tie men dat hou hou, ying wai oor ji gei dou mm zi dou dap on.

lei tou sin gong zo yat gui wa ling oor qing sing, "Oor dou gou zi dou oor hai mm wui lei hoi hou gei" dor zei le, ying wai oor dang gan gei zou hai li goi wa. hou zoi lei mm hai tai qi tong oor gong, mmm hai oor zou wui xiim lok tai sum le. chiong tong but yu tuen tong. hai mei gam gong sin!

hou la! zok fok dai ga shan dan jit fai lok! sun nin fai lok! hai li gor gam you qing cui ge season, where love is in the air, chok lei dei dai ga wan dou hang fok, tong fai lok.

Gam yat tong cindy tong joan kin meen, zhen hai hoi sam cheh. leong gor hou qi jaeded zor wo. dan hai, hor neng hai ying wai gong chok tai mong le, sor yi mou xi gan da lei zi gei, mou sor wai le, yi geng you yan ziu gu le. tie dou oor dou gei xin mok gei, zi gei dou you xiong har le. hai.....

wah, you mou yan oi wan oor seh gong fu gei ye leh? mmm cho gua.

ohh! mummy! shang yat fai lok!

Keet.

waiting

My hamsum face for my campaign. haha

Anyway. GYSB has been in the news for quite some time now. Let's hope they will play it more as time comes.



and apparently, it is in the news today! but I missed it, not once but twice once around 10pm and another at about 1am at night. I am also featured and according to bunny, I stumped! WTH! ok! i hope the cut is not as bad.

Anyway, for those of you that are my friends and are reading this. Please put (b)(d) on your msn nicks.in support for the anti binge dinking message. We are trying and hoping that all of us can be responsible alcohol consumers. please log on to the website. http://www.getyoursexyback.sg/ to take a look at this cool website sharon has come out with.

There has been so much going on. The team and I are really sincere with all the help that everyone gave to us. I really hope all that helped understands that I am really placed in a very tough and difficult stuation to decide. and although most of the times I do it right, sometimes I make mistakes as well. Please forgive me, I sincerely apologize.




Things havent been smooth for me. I am busy juggling everything. I am feeling like I have to let L go. and yet at the same time I want things to go well. But then I am seriously not ready for it too. So for the best of things. I guess its better that things moved on. and so shall I.

Do i need it? I don't know. i seriously dont know.

感触量多

罪孽深重。 不要让过去影响未来。 至今我的却反了不少错误，孤单以便习惯。 HOT有个屁用，他妈的最后还是如此。 我愿谁风飘去，到世界的角落去纠察一切，但又有谁能跟我同行。

在一周以内，我与三个当时分隔以前相处的又接触了。 但视乎个个结果都 “焅” 妈的相同， “糙” 为什么总是这样！ pardon my french. I had to rant tonight.

注定单人行。。。。。。

hen lei le

我很累。 虽然时间过的非常的快，但我只不过做完了几样事情。 感觉自己效率并非我想象的好。 可能适应为最近真的有点疲惫。 就那现在来说吧。 都已经几点了，我还在做事。 而且有正经事不干，来写博客。啊啊，真是个tmd贱骨头。

这几肖，过着跟以往不同的生活，的却对我的身体的bio-cycle造成很大的烦恼。 好了。 写够了。 累了。大家写了！ 记得到我的官方网站 www.getyoursexyback.sg 去查看我的年中项目哦！ 支持我，支持新加坡！　谢啦！

GET YOUR SEXY BACK!

Dear Friends, it's here!
I present to you GET YOUR SEXY BACK !
http://www.getyoursexyback.sg/

oops i did it again. hah

once again i did ths shit to myself again.
bringing myself up the roller coaster to be let down again.
i am such a sucker for such things.
when will i ever get out of this cycle.
for a long time. i thought it would be locked. perhaps it is still, looking at how uncertain I am.
oh well. Jae-ded once more.

...

way way back pictures

cringe

no comments. its Singapore's Media Development Authority.

It's a wrap! *clap clap

Hi all!
I am back with a punCH! I am going to rant tonight! its 3.48am now. hah! but i felt that I have to blog tonight. yup. so here it is.

Firstly! I am done with all exams in UNI! no more exams at the undergrad level! *say YEAH! for jae! I can't help but feel a sense of helplessness and yet a bit of excitement as I wrote my last paper and take my first few steps into the wicked world. I am sure all you out there would feel or have felt the same. Well, my much awaited break was interupted though...

I had to do a film project for Shah, the up and coming suria(Singapore's TV12) celebrity. haha. Well. to those who genuinely know me, I helped him without any excuses. *hehe. Well. Its a myriad of emoptions for me. I had to remember the lines in like less than half a day (I am already not good at remembering stuff;as some of you might know) the shoot overran and went on for such a long time. but well, it made me understand the importance of homework and also professionalism.(thanks darling* 'Hi stranger' :P) I seriously learnt alot on the set and from my co-actress. (it helps that shes cute too lah, duh) but a continuos 7 hour(till 2am) and another 13 hour with 3 hour break(till 2am too), work cycle in a span of two days is really taxing on me and more so on the crew. I feel apart from being schoolmates, we shouold try to be as professional as possible. most were. some need a wee bit of learning. virtues like this i feel can be nurtured. so theres alot to learn. Alot for me. Realism aside, i felt there are indeed some differences between education systems. or maybe its just work culture. i dunno. maybe next time i will find out. but anyway to them team! I think you guys did a great job and deserve a pat on the back. thanks for tolerating my mistakes. (OOOps)

"Oh darling. you're sweet." she made me realise why I am a sucker for certain types of girls. thanks for the last shot too. I found some closure from u. thanks. honestly, I felt so much better. Now I really know what I need. hah!

NExt! I have this burst of energy to write this down. Jook gave us a offer that we would have turned down but, it was eventually signed and sealed. The stand was firm from tammy. Very firm. But this leads me to another revelation.

Superclubs will remain as superclubs as they have a set of protocol that retains their professionalism(as evident from my first hand experience). Chin Chong places will always remain as chin chong places as they lack the certain marketing perspective or should i say professional code that superclubs have and maintain. carry on what you do; and you would turn out the same like what the previous clubs did (engage yourselves in melbourne shuffling perhaps).

Sorry for my bitching. Jae is after all, quite a seasoned events/party organiser and been in that circle for quite some time. But anyway this is just my rants.

Thats all I have to say.

*ANYWAY A FEW MORE THINGS!
to justin(dunno if i got your name right)and that bitch who both seem too drunk to know what is a size 32 waist size is and mistake it as 28. please go and train your alcohol tolerance.(come to me when you can beat me, if you cant fucking hold your liquor. drink responsibly. dont be a disgrace to yourself and your friends) and dont mistake your fucking 3 inch for a 6. oh. and even if Taboo has an anniversary party today. you dont need to tell me. you fucking dont even know who Addie is. dont come and try to play punk with me when i havent slept for a day. sometimes trying to be cool is not good for you when you dont know the person. stop disgracing yourself. lets hope you are not rich. cos if you are, well.... you are such a stereotype. *HAH!

Eric Prydz vs Floyd - Proper Education

have a go and the selected vidz.

body rockers - I like the way you move

Hi Tack SAY SAY SAY

euro music Vids are always s#x charged. but the songs good

being ahead.

First RNB hip hop. then now...

oh how u hate being the firsts that love it and the rest of the world that follows suit.
to the others that used to diss house and trance. HAH! diss back!

but i would hate to see house/trance/electronica go manistream here. more and more people are catching on the wave. if u r thinking of what this genre is... well... if u dont like it dun bother polluting the pool. go back to ur own grounds. u'll like it better there.

well. psy-trance isnt catching up yet. but soon. maybe 4 years? haha.

WE (L) HOUSE :P

sorry, but cant help but feel ahead. only because of the past.

Crystal Method's great.

emo eat

eat eat eat. emo eat eat eat. EAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ATE.

halloween photos.

it is going to be my offcial last academic module.
nothing left on my undergraduate life, cept EN104 which is a one week pow wow next year in march.

nothing exciting has happened over the years. maybe soon i will blog about this. but may's class is really the first few that have touched me academically and made me felt that education was worth something. thank you may.
honestly, i am the most self confessed jae-ded piece of * around.
we ended the class at raffles marina. the place where the rich hang out. sail or whatever. pics. I am in no mood to blog recently. so here this goes.

how long more must i slap myself in the face before i stop?

Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap

Thanks sus. intro me this song. hah.

where are we?
what the hell is going on?
the dust has only just begun to fall
crop circles in the carpet
sinking feeling

spin me round again
and rub my eyes,
this can't be happening
when busy streets a mess with people
would stop to hold their heads - heavy

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines
all those years
they were here first

oily marks appear on walls
where pleasure moments hung before the takeover,
the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

hide and seek
trains and sewing machines (oh, you won't catch me around here)
blood and tears (hearts)
they were here first

Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that you only meant well?
well of course you did
Mmmm whacha say,
Mmmm that its all for the best?
of course it is
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm that it's just what we need
you decided this
Mmmm whacha say?
Mmmm what did she say?

ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs

(hide and seek)
speak no feeling no i don't believe you
you don't care a bit,
you don't care a (you don't care a) bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
oh no, you don't care a bit

(hide and seek)
oh no, you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit
you don't care a bit

next

seems like its not going to work. oh well.

its jaes wicked world for moi

jaded. seriously.

j: so how did it go?
ck: its been a long time anyway. a different type of person that i normally go out with. interesting and yet its not smooth. dunno. never try before. so its v diff.

j:r u getting deaf?
ck: yes.

j:diff?
ck: v v diff. dunno what to do. wait and see what happens next time lo. seemingly different side of the world. but yet possible.

quiet charms of alt people

its been a long time since i last chatted with someone for so long. hmmm.
quiet charms.

i wouldn't know. maybe i will. I dont know.

closure

I found closure when i knew that Geraldine was doing great after I left. I still couldn't hold back my grief although I only knew her for such a short time compared to the others at the memorial.

Geraldine has a big heart. She passed with a bigger one. I vaguely remember her telling me that she had a heart condition when we were discussing about the horse riding event that she went with the SSA.

GOD BLESS Geraldine. may you find peace.
geraldinemaglee.multiply.com

life is really short.

in memory of Geraldine.

life is really short. i knew geraldine on exchange in brissy.
time with her was good as she was an old student that is starting afresh at QUT.
She was pursuing her degree in film production.

her mum broke the news to me this afternoon. I was shocked. seriously. if i am not wrong, she was 29 when i knew her. she stayed at Unilodge of QUT and came over to rochester once to look at my place. we ate at the malaysian food stall a few times too. She's always the inquisitive student in the video production class as well.
She had big plans after finishing her degree. she wanted to form a small production house in sg.

she left us last week.


life is really short. I am regreting that i never took the time to contact her after i came back to singapore. I did not have her msn and i didnt have her singapore number. I always thought that i would see her again when she comes back to singapore. like how i meet everyone when i see them on the streets in sg. pple, please make an effort to try to get back to friends u haven't met for a long time. or try to make efforts to patch things up between people that u have bad blood with. dont leave things hanging. life is to short to live with baggages.

I shall start with mine.

you will always be remembered.

Jae

selamat hari raya

right after mark's birthday from still road. don gave me and desi a lift to china town. and we bypassed the place I have been thinking of visiting for the past month. hehe. anyone interested to check it out?

881

Alright. I know I am slow to catc 881 only now. but hey, or the third time in 24 years the whole family watched a movie in the cinemas together! I am extremely happy that both the two old ones enjoyed the movie. as usual they were amused by the hokkien script. haha. and so was I.

Anyway 881 is definitely the best excuse to bring your parents out for movies. (If you haven't been doing so in your last 10 years.) the reason being they will be able to relate to it. in more ways than one. though royston didnt exactly represent the entire generation of the baby boomers living in Singapore. but it sure did show the hokkien community. The Tee Gong (sky god) was one of the things in 881 that was extremely close to what is and was happening in hokkien families. Maybe cos royston himself is a tan, a hokkien. thats why so much of the movie is hokkien oriented. well maybe Jae should do a cantonese version of the heartlanders.

anyway back to the movie. the cuts that royston used were amazingly nostalgic to his last number ,, "15". the anthems that were spewed by mindee and yann yann sounded like the ah beng anthems of 15 as well. but nontheless it was entertaining.

although I was at the 3rd row from the front, it is still an enjoyable movie. Best movie to bring your baby boomers friends to.

Wicked Rating: 4 / 5

stop blocking me. its irritating.

let down

ATB is such a let down. oh well. dragonfly is not very fun either. shitty.
fyp is definintely gearing up. u see everyone piaing and sneaking arnd. haha.
well thats how its wicked.

dragonfly

thats me sleeping already at dragonfly.... not. zixuan, yiming and lawrence were there too. it was surprisingly quite good at dragonfly. the bands were tight and the performances were entertaining. although abit cheenapok. but i like. haha. i think i am really mandopop like sari puts it. haha. ok. anyway crunch time. ohh aunties at dragonfly terrorized me half the time i was there. it made the whole night more interesting. haha. cheers.

Follow this link and watch this movie!

I don't know how many people read this but one of my mates has a very cool movie that he shot and you guys should take a look at this.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbfpLE3hRKY

humbling

on the train back yesterday, I met one of my recruits.
I managed to remember his surname.... 'Chok". Amazed by how i was able to remember.
anyway we were talking about the past and now. and suddenly he said something which i seem to have left to the back of my head in my life. my mantra. He said, "I still remember what you said last time to us. Don't ever let anyone say that you are F*^K up." Because you are not and you can be able to prove them wrong. this totally humbleed me that What I used to do to touch lives and all has been lost somewhere amidst my pursuit of other things.

Wake up call. time to bring things back. even for people like you.
"Don't EVER let anyone one say that you are fugged up" Never.
jaes wicked world...

Paul Van Dyk @ Zouk 1st September 2006

marvelliciously-stupendous-kickass-wicked night with World's Number 1 DJ.

For those of you out there who missed it... oh well. lets just say you haven't tried something which gives esctasy... as Kae puts it... but is legal.

Its been 3 times since he came and I missed his gigs. I can safely say, I will not miss anymore of his gigs again.

God it blew me away. Being consumed by music. For yesterday night I was one of those that got a little wet with sweat from dancing haha.!

But hell yea. it was a great time with KJ, Kai and Jamie. god.

PVD was so progressive it was almost orgasmic. holding back the bass till it was time to release the tunes. god. MINDBLOWING!

look around

I look around me again to see the faces I saw for the past 3 years. the jae-ded-ness in their eyes. people not talking to people that they were once familiar with at a point in their academic lives. it further saddens me to how a society can be this fake and yet thrive. wicked isnt it? maybe one of the readers here can enlighten me... for i am jae-ded. is this considered fake then? or is it just a sign of people getting too wary of others? preventing themselves from getting their egos hurt?

Mark's class is making me worry about my past entries about some specific people. maybe its time to delete them? haha. SIM.

in closing..... an beginning

as this chapter closes. wickedness surrounds. things that are left untold have surfaced to light and has undone what has been tigthened for so long.

happy for he is not as he is jae-ded. sad for he is neither as he is numb. ditched the piece he did not for he has given up.

feather it is for now till the next torrent comes.

wicked times shrouds as the inevitable period approaches. but light shall prevail with the fellowship that is formed.

...

I wonder how fake can things get. how mindfucked can i get. nightmares even. god. help me end this.



anyway loof was great. all thanks to danny. we even had the 'I "heart" FYP' badge.



i was thinking about all the cliques in school. and i wonder why there seemed to be so much differences between everyone. i mean all of us are in our early 20s already. and its not like we have not seen enough movies or experiences with other people. WHY AREN'T PEOPLE TALKING TO PEOPLE? even after 3 years of education and after seeing everyone else in school for the past 3 years.



yes there is bad blood between some people. but why the silence even when there is no bad blood? why am i not talking to stanley in school? why is almost everyone not talking to samantha in school? and even nathan. I cant help but think that the school is filled with alot of ego pple. Not that they are bad people, you know. being egotistical doesnt mean u are a mean person. like i myself admit that i have an ego. and maybe thats the reason why i dont talk to some people. oh well. i promise to be better from now on. hope you will too.



schools going to be challenging this sem. too all you fellow mates. strive on. and we all know... we love FYP!! :P

1st day of sch

i wld say its bad.
had to meet after 4 months. silence is deafening.